26 posts tagged “college life”

Painful Revelations

Dec 26, 2009
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My attitude towards school have shifted 360-degrees.

Assessing my last semester is painful. I'm so tired and stressed. I can't give my 100% when it comes to schoolwork anymore. I feel like I have given away everything last semester. Not only that, I have come to a very painful realization regarding some people whom I thought I can trust. This revelation had also affected my school performance as of late which also made me unhappy prior to my NRYLI experience.

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It's a good thing that I went to Baguio for the Annual NRYLI because even if I didn't have decent sleep, the experience was very rewarding just like what I've mentioned on my previous blog. But when I came back to PNU to attend our class' Christmas Party, my morale was so slow that I couldn't find any happiness in our party. I felt like an outsider, out-of-touch with what's happening. I'm glad that it's Christmas Break and I can take a long rest and forget for a while all the school-related things that's been bugging me. I honestly don't know how am I going to finish and graduate with this kind of attitude. A classmate of mine even commented, while we were chatting on Facebook, that prior to NRYLI, he couldn't see me smiling or joking anymore.

I think I have lost the eagerness and zest for school anymore.

I want to regain a part of my self - that energetic, mischievous, interested in school ME.

I wonder when will SHE show up again... I need HER badly so that I can graduate with flying colours! I wish she'll COME BACK once 2010 comes! Otherwise, I don't know what will happen to me anymore!

Basic Research

Dec 2, 2009
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What TOPIC should be presented tomorrow?

What would be favorable to our Prof?

I am HOPING that before I go to my THIRD NRYLI, Diana and I will be able to have a topic that would be approve by Dr. Reyes so that we will be able to start before 2009 ends!

Masochists

Nov 30, 2009
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So I am having another research again with my friend Diana. This time it's for our subject, BASIC RESEARCH and our professor is none other than incomparable Dr. Reyes (again!). I just realized something... In making a research, you always look for a problem to solve. I mean, that's the essence of a research. You look for something so that you can either find a solution for it or prove its existence!

As the one who is making the research, I'm being a MASOCHIST. I'm looking for a problem. I'm looking for something that would make my head ache and test my endurance cognitively. I'm searching for something that would make me loose my social life and the freedom to do whatever I want! Isn't?!

I know that I should stop moaning since making another research IS a requirement for graduation. I know that we only have until February to finish it since I'll be graduating in March 2010! It's just that, I'm already mentally, emotionally, financially and physically TIRED due to our previous research last semester! I know I can endure another very hectic schedule but the realization that I'm being a masochist is really a revelation!

The funny thing is, after everything is DONE... I know I'll be missing ALL this tiresome things that are currently making me like a zombie!

But as of this moment, I just want to be over with it, I want it so BAD to end! I want to be at the finish line NOW!!!

Start Of Another Inferno

Nov 8, 2009
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Our second semester started last November 3 and just when I thought that this last and final semester of my college life would be easier, I WAS WRONG! In fact, it would be more challenging since we don't have one thesis... we have at least TWO!!! Aside from that, I have a CONCEPT PAPER and a BOOK REVIEW. Seriously, this will be the death of me but I need to do what I have to do! It's tough but I can take it...

BRING IT ON!!!

81

Nov 4, 2009
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I received my grade yesterday for Local History.

I got a grade of 81 and I'm glad of it!

Even though it's quite low, it's still acceptable...

Better than a grade of 79 or below...

At least, our efforts paid through!

Now, I'll worry about getting HIGH GRADES for this semester...

My last one as a college student!

Thesis - An Elegy

Oct 21, 2009
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As of this moment, I have a very low energy due to the thesis. I thought that Diana and I are done with it BUT we were surprised to learn a while ago that our professor is still NOT yet satisfied with what we presented in our paper. She wanted us to revise some parts of our paper, AGAIN!!!

I am really frustrated because I thought that I could finally enjoy our semestral break but I was WRONG!!! If we're not going to revise it, our professor will mark us INCOMPLETE! It is something I've been avoiding since I want to maintain my grades as decently as possible! Get it?!

I am running out of patience, energy, hope, and money! I have cried out of frustration days ago. I am completely and utterly discombobulated...

My morale is low as of this moment...

I want to scream. I want to get angry. I want to end this suffering.

I want it to STOP!

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Making a thesis can make a person experience the highs and lows of life. One minute you're screaming out of happiness then you're cursing the next!

It's also like a rollercoaster ride. One day you're feeling so high then the next day you're feeling so down.

A rollercoaster ride indeed...

Defense

Oct 16, 2009
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The day has come for me and Diana to defend our thesis...

It happened yesterday, at 6:00pm...

We were the 9th group to present and the 3rd that day...

Just like any other group, we managed to overcome our professor's bloody inquiries...

I'm just glad that we're done (almost!)...

I have to face the music again this morning because its our finals...

And on Monday, we have to pass the final draft of our thesis...

Defense... it's done... and I'm happy that it is!

The Secret In Making A Research

Oct 2, 2009
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My last entry was about NOT being able to continue doing our research. The main reason was I couldn't find any motivation mainly because I'm stucked at home doing nothing. Today, Diana and I went to the National Library to search for more references and related literature. There, I have found the answer for my lack of motivation... All I have to do is to GO TO A PLACE WHEREIN I WOULD BE COMPELLED TO THINK!

Go to places where there are lots of books, manuscripts, documents, etc. so that you'll feel the energy to hit those conceptual frameworks, statement of the problems, scope and limitations, related literatures, and methodologies (in short, the research!). The library is the perfect place to do it and to conquer the lack of motivation and energy. In the library, the atmosphere is academic, which benefits the mind to do some serious thinking. At home, if you're not bored, there are many things to distract the mind like the internet, tv, magazines, and food (temptations!)

So if the weather permits it, I would like to go the National Library or any library around Manila just so me and Diana can finish our research successfully and on time!

Aja!

How To Continue?

Sep 30, 2009
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Due to the storm, our research has taken a backseat.

BUT it's time to think about it again!

And I don't know how to continue...

My mind is kind of paralyze right now, not accepting technicalities...

How to move on to the next chapter of our research?

I hope that our professor will move the deadline...

Read, Read, and Read

Sep 22, 2009
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What's the best way of presenting a really good topic for a research?

What else but to READ!

I spent an entire Sunday evening reading books about the Philippine Revolution! It really pays to know the concepts you're using like REVOLUTION. The word revolution can mean many things so we defined first what it is before explaining our topic. This step is often overlooked but it is very important: reading to know more about your topic and to define your concepts!

Our definition of REVOLUTION:

Change brought about by political, social, cultural, and economic transformation by means of violence by the people or masses

What is its connection to Pasig?

Since the Philippine Revolution was carried out by the KATIPUNAN which was established by lower-middle class people (in July 7, 1892) and whose followers were from the lower class, it began to spread rapidly in Luzon thus creating a chapter per provinces or towns. Pasig is a town near the capital, Manila and it had a Katipunan chapter and members!

A Pasig historian claimed that the revolution began in the town, particularly in a creek called BITUKANG MANOK. This is what we will try to prove and we're hoping that from our data-gathering, we can!

AJA!